A small confession......

So, The begining of any 12 step program, is to admit that you have a problem right? Ok, so here it goes...... I have a problem., now this may shock you, so brace your self.............................

I am lazy. Ok, not much of a shock i know, I am working on it, I don't know what the point is to writing it in a blog, accept maybe just to see it, I don't know. I have also come to realize recently, that I am not making the best decisions as far as food goes, I mean yea I am eating, but too much and the wrong stuff....... :D it all tastes good though. SO here is my goal for this week,

1. be less lazy, keep up with stuff better, and
2. Eat smaller porportions, of better food. I will check in and let you know how it goes......

This was a good weekend, Gavin and I have had a lot of fun, playing outside, we ate a picnic dinner last night outside the apartment, hung out all day today, playing and snuggling, he fell asleep in my arms, which he doesn't do alot, so that was fun, anyway, I hope God has blessed you all with a weekend as fun as mine.

Been a few days

Alot has happened this week. I am trying to sort it all out in my head. I am getting there.

Big changes at the office, 2 people are gone, they are trying to get someone new in, more patients, more work, lots of fun! I love what I do, and thank God everyday he put me where he did.

Gavin keeps me on my toes, he is starting to have alot of attitude. I am praying that God gives me the wisdom to deal with it. it is amazing to me that a 2 year old can talk back as well as any teenager!

Other than that, I am just working on keeping up with my diabetes and trying to eat better, another one of those dicipline things :D

Until next time,

Erin

It's Funny

I sat down about 5 times this week to blog, and then never did. I would get 3 paragraphs in then get distracted. it has been that kind of week, but you know it has been a good week too, and a rough week too. this upper resp junk that has been going around the country hit me this week. It stinks! but then i think, Thank you Lord from keeping it from me this long. So I will go on and see what is next. I learned alot this week. At work and in Bible Study. I learned alot. I pray for those in my life that have lost people. There was alot of death this week. So I pray for them, and then move on, my mind is jumping tonight,, I am having a hard time keeping a straight thought hahaha, been like that all day today.

So The Biggest Loser. One of my addictions, but how ironic that LOSER has such a negative connotation, and yet that is something people WANT to be. Then I think about that Biblical principle about losing your life to be saved and being a servent, that means that I want to be the biggest loser too. I want to be the biggest loser of my life for God's Glory!

P.S.

The point of this blog is for me to get my thoughts written down, if you know me this is no surprise, well if you talk to me enough it isn't at least, but my brain tends to jump around. so have fun trying to figure some of my leaps out, and thank you for bearing with the ADD-ness that is my brain!

A Good Day!

Today was a day full of fun and family! My brother-in-law got baptized, which was really cool, alot of people have been praying for him for a long time! Not only that, but I got to sleep in!

Gavin has been getting up alot at night again, which is frustrating, because he started sleeping through the night at 3 weeks old and now he is two!!! we struggled with this for a while, then he got better about it, then it got bad again, now this week he slept through 2 nights then the third got up again. I think part of it is that he is sick. He has had this lingering cough, for like a few months, and so he has coughing fits, which makes me sad for him. I just continue to lift him up to Christ that is all I can do.

There is a woman in my life who I admire very much. She was diagnosed a few months ago with brain cancer. They found it really late and chemo did no good, they said at the time they found it, 40% of her brain had atrophied. (frozen or quit working) but she never stopped smiling, and still she is joyful. She said, you know it is going to be ok, whatever IT is it is going to be ok, God is in control. WOW! I pray everyday for her. and also that God will give me an attitude like hers, no matter what life brings, IT will be ok, because God is in control, yesterday, today, and forever. To God be the Glory Amen.

Another day

It seems like, everytime I start to make strides to do better at things, something happens that makes me mad at myself. Like this morning. I lock my keys in my car. It is embarrassing, not that I did it but that I do it so much. Then I think about it. and being mad at myself, and thinking about what other people would think and worried that I would upset them or they would be mad at me. all of that is selfishness, it is like feeling sorry for myself. It happened, it changed the plans of a few people and it is done. A wonderful woman, offered to give me a ride to help take care of getting my spare key, and as we were driving, God used her to show me my wrong attitude. She said, you know, this is just another example of God's sovereignty. (sp?) We had plans about how this morning would go, but God knew what was actually gonna happen, so our plans got changed, oh well. WOW. here I am thinking I am stupid and how could I and just that one sentence reminded me, this isn't about me at all. period, Forgive me Lord for my selfish attitude, and thank you for Christ-like women that You have led me to, to show me these things.

Day 1.

I am trying to turn a corner in my life. If you know me, you know that I have grown leaps and bounds emotionally and mentally over the last couple years. However I still have a ways to go. One of the things I am working on is being more disciplined with stuff. Keeping up on my house and car being clean, a daily devotional time, Getting up at the same time, whether I need to or not so I can get stuff done, things like that. I think as part of that journaling will be a good way to get things out that I need to, triumphs, frustrations, and just everyday happenings. We will see how this goes. anyway, I will have more to say later I am sure, but for now, Hello blogging world, Erin has arrived!